Birth. It is everywhere. Literally. Every day with each birth there are new stories to be told, wisdom to be shared and knowledge to be learned. Elizabeth Bachner sees birth in a unique way: As life lessons that help us grow as spiritual beings having human experiences. Childbirth is her prose, her jam, and her calling. We are your safe space for the sharing of those experiences from all different perspectives and many walks of life. Through curious conversation and storytelling, there is al ...
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38 • Jeni & Monique IUI Conception, Planned Birth Center Birth, Unmedicated Vaginal Breech Birth
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This is a fun podcast for me because I have been on (literally) the whole journey with Jeni and Monique. I supported them with their conception and then they chose to birth with the GraceFull Midwives to have an unmedicated out of hospital birth. Their plans changed when they found out their child was breech; but, we are very lucky in Los Angeles b…
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37 • Becky Vroom - Resilience & Strength: Modified Bedrest, Prodromal Labor, Hospital Midwife Unmedicated Birth, Cervical Tear & Postpartum Hemorrhage
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Becky is an active and healthy person, so she assumed pregnancy and birth would come easily to her. Instead, she was met with many complications and challenges that forced her to slow down and take it easy as she was on modified bed rest and medicated until she made it to 36 weeks. Becky experienced prodromal labor and daily contractions for the la…
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36 • Jamie Batten: 3 babies, 3 pregnancies and 3 very different postpartums. Hyperemisis, Formula Feeding, Breastfeeding, Induction, Water Birth, Hospital Birth, Testicular Tortion
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“There are all different normals”. That basically sums up the 3 very different pregnancies, births and post partum period for Jamie Batten. We cover a lot of ground on this epic (in length) podcast: induction, pitocin, epidural, bed rest, early labor, OP (Back Labor), formula feeding, cutting of the cord on the perinium, reastfeeding for 2 years, h…
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35 • Amy Meyers: Mother of 3, Pitocin Inductions, Epidurals, Waterbirth, Homebirth, Post Partum Depression`
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Amy lives in Utah with her husband and is the mother of 3 children (all under the age of 3!). The first two were born in the hospital and both were pitocin inductions with an epidural - the first at the suggestion of her doctor the second at her request. Looking back Amy realized there was trauma and a lot of feelings that were not validated, which…
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34 • Faith Freeman : Eldest of 10 Children, Homebirth Midwife, Birth of her First Child at Home
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Faith is the eldest of 10 children, 7 of whom were born at home. When she became pregnant with her daughter Kiss, she had an idea of what to expect, but it did not prepare her fully for her own homebirth journey. We chat about birthing babies in Oklahoma as a midwife, expectations vs reality in birth and what it is like to grow up where low-risk bi…
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33 • Jessica Hooper: IUGR, Induction, Healing Shame, Loosing Control of Your "Plan"
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This is not only the story of an unexpected diagnosis of IUGR and the need for a hospital induction but also how Jessica's past history influenced her current thinking. Jessica was holding on to a lot of shame and polarised thinking that showed up to be healed so she could step fully into the role of motherhood. ______ For more information about ou…
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32 • Danielle Bigby: Birth Center Birth, Postpartum Struggles & Healing Bullimia
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Danielle's journey to becoming a mother taught her things she never expected. She left her home in Miami to move to Los Angeles and found a new strength she did not know she had for the unmedicated birth of her daughter Samaya at GraceFull's Birthing Center. That is where she thought the lessons would end, but they kept going. Becoming a mother bro…
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31 • Sera Bonds: Birthing Oversees in Israel
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Sera and Adam took the time to talk with me about what it is like birthing overseas as foreigners in a foreign land. _________ Sera Bonds is a midwife, doula, activist and Founder of Circle of Health International (COHI). You can currently find her in Austin, TX where works as a @Carriagehousebirth doula and Childbirth Educator. Also, Sera is a kic…
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30 • Tessa & Chase Benz: 2 Home Births, Parent 2 Children, Post Partum Challenges, Becoming a Father, Learning How to Ask for Help
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Tessa always knew she wanted a homebirth and it took some time for Chase to get on board with the process, but once he got educated and started to understand the difference between low and high risk pregnancy he was 100% on commited. _________ If you wanna reach out to Tessa and Chase please do so! They love to talk about birth and their children! …
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29 • Jana & Mark Roemer : Burning Man, Home birth. PostPartum & Healing Past Taumas
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Jana and Mark Roemer share their story of love, burning man and a father’s healing through the journey of parenting their son Freddie. We do a deep dive into conception, a homebirth, postpartum challenges and the healing traumas. "Having a little boy allowed me to parent the little boy in myself." This episode is filled with a lot of wisdom! ______…
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28 • Melissa Hemphill LIVE at BIRTHFIT 2018 Summit in Austin, TX
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Melissa Hemphill is a BIRTHFIT Coach Director, and Air Force Officer, Biology Instructor, CrossFit Coach, Mind Body Nutrition Coach, wife, and mom to 3 children (with a 4th born on 1/14/19). She shares with us the stories of her conceptions, births and insightful musings around birth while being in the military. _________For more information to go:…
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27 • Amy Dannheim LIVE from The Broken Shaker in Miami - BONUS: Discussion About Strong Abs & Possibly Preventing a Cesarean Birth
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This is the first time that Amy has shared her birth journey and is doing so in front of a live audience in Miami. Amy teaches yoga and prepared for a homebirth that led to a hospital transport and a cesarean section. Please stick around for the BONUS: Behind the Scenes (we recorded this bit after the live episode) where we talk in detail about the…
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26 • Alex Winkelman : Homebirth Transport with a C-Section
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For more information to go: GraceFull or follow us: @gracefullbirth or our guest: @HelloMyTribe__________This episode is sponsored by GraceFull where you can find BBJ's host Elizabeth's free ebook Birth Planning: All the Questions to Ask and all kinds of educational videos including Childbirth Education, Advanced Doula Trainings and Lactation Suppo…
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25 • Cara, Dawn, Jim & Paul - Modern Day Intentional Family, 2 Dads, 2 Mothers and 1 Child, Conception, HIV, Insemination and Homebirth
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A man, a woman, a white picket fence and 2.3 children is the fantasy that I was raised on and has been long gone in many cultures for a while. Families come in all shapes and sizes and this family is one of my favorites. Hudson has 2 moms and 2 dads: Cara his biological mommy, Jim his biological daddy, Dawn his Momma, and Paul his, well, his Paul! …
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24 • Jenny Silva and her Mother Maria Silva LIVE at PCMA: Judy Chicago Special Series - Intergenerational Birthing, Mexican Traditions, Homebirth, Grandmother’s Perspective and Birthing 11 Children
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Jenny Silva is a local doula who holds within her in the ancient wisdom passed down to her by her ancestors. It was an honor to share sacred space (or what I like to call ceremony) with her and her mother, Maria Silva, inside the Judy Chicago Birth Stories exhibition in Pasadena, CA in September of 2018. In this episode we go deep into quite a few …
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23 • Arista Ilona - Unplanned pregnancy, never wanted children, homebirth transport, cesarean birth and co-parenting
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After embracing an unplanned pregnancy Arista Ilona moved forward preparing for her dream homebirth. After she transported to a hospital she had an unexpected c-section. Leading up to motherhood, Arista Ilona endured years of emotional trauma, a lack of self-love, judgment, and depression. Her birthing journey transformed into a profound healing jo…
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22 • Sam Huggins - Conception, 2 Births, Going from 1 to 2 children, Precipitous Labor, Doulas & Postpartum Challenges
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This is a special podacst for me because you really get a peak into my world and listen to what happens when a group of doulas and birth junkies get together to listen to a birth story and share wisdom. In sharing the stories of both of Sam’s kids we delve into a lot of wisdom around water breaking, the fear of going past 42 weeks, homebirthing, do…
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21 • Jennica Schwartzman & Family - HVBAC (Home Vaginal Birth After a Cesarean) of her 2nd Child
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This is a story of renewed faith. It is about believing in one's body and asking for support. Despite being told by traditional OBs that there was only a 13% chance of having a homebirth after her first cesarean, Jennica chose to invest in herself financially, mentally, physically and emotionally to make make sure she had what she needed to safely …
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20 • Lauren Archer: Gestational Diabetes, Vegan Diet, Natural Induction, Possibly Transport & Homebirth
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Lauren Archer, who you may know as the vagina behind the policy changes for IG and FB around showing vaginal births, shares her journey into becoming a mother that has quite a few twists and turns before she learns the ultimate lesson, “Your body won’t give you anything you can’t handle.” _________For more information to go: GraceFull or follow us:…
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19 • Amber Lestrange - Home Waterbirth, Ectopic Pregnancy, Postpartum Thoughts & Healing of Hormonal Imbalances
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Today we are talking with We are going to talk with one half of the podcast & blog The Mother Loving Future and GraceFull Mama Amber Lestrange. We recorded this podcast live at an event with did with Hatch Collection and covered a lot of ground. We chat about her “sexy” conception for her first child, her home waterbirth at her Venice cottage, her …
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18 • Lorena Garcia LIVE in Phoenix - Two Miscarriages from MTHFR, Birthing & Post Partum Stories
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Lorena Garcia was born and raised in Mexico City and comes from a culture that revolves around community and family. Lorena shares with us her full journey into parenthood - from the heartbreak of her first two miscarriages to finding joy and ease through her postpartum choices. Lorena's postpartum experiences combined with her deep Mexican heritag…
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17 • Dee Poku - Birthing in Manhattan and Parenting Wisdom
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Dee Poku who is a British New Yorker by way of Ghana. Dee is the Co-Founder and CEO of WIE (Women Inspiration and Enterprise), a leadership network whose mission is to support women in their career ambitions by providing real world learning via unique access to established business leaders. She is also the founder of The Other Festival, a new platf…
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16 • Mara Hoffman: Twin Loss, Bed Rest & Birth (The Judy Chicago Series)
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TRIGGER WARNING * we talk about prenatal loss * Known for her world-renowned fashion line Mara Hoffman is an activist, mother, and visionary. In this beautiful episode, we sit down to talk about her journey through IVF, conceiving twins, and facing loss. She bravely dives into her experience with total honesty holding a conversation on the humanity…
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15 • MINISODE: The Judy Chicago Series: Maternity Clothing and Working Mothers - Ariane Goldman
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Welcome to a special Mini-Sode with Ariane Goldman, the creator and CEO of the maternity fashion line HATCH. We get into the nitty-gritty of maternity fashion as we discuss the history of maternity clothing, her inspiration for starting her collection, the evolution of the pregnant body and what it is like to be both a mother and the CEO of a compa…
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14 • Genevive Slonim - Birthing in Foreign Land (The Birth of her First Child)
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Genevive has been deeply active in peace activism and social justice work for over 20 years. 10 years ago she found herself pregnant in a foreign country with no community. It was through the birth of her first child that she found what was to become her platform and passion: Birth of a Mama. _________ For more information to go: GraceFull or follo…
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13 • Katie Vigos - An Unmediated Hosptial Birth & A Bliss-filled Home Birth
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Katie Vigos is a Registered Nurse and mother of three boys in Los Angeles, California who is best known for her popular IG feed Empowered Birth Project which led the way to allow for #uncensoredchildbirth photos on both IG and FB. Her first son was born in a hospital in 2007. While she was able to experience an unmedicated, vaginal birth without co…
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12 • Lindsey Bliss and her doula Sam Huggins - Home Birth of baby #7
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Lindsey Bliss has devoted her life to all things birth, as both a mother, doula and the Co-Director of Carriage House Birth, a Brooklyn-based doula collective. Lindsey’s own path to motherhood has been filled with twists and turns she never could have imagined, and today she will share with us the journey of her 4th pregnancy and 7th child (yes, th…
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11 • The Judy Chicago Series: A Conversation with the Artist Judy Chicago
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When I was first asked to be a part of this special series of birth art for the Pasadena Museum, I had no idea who Judy Chicago was. I just said "yes" because I'm a birth junkie who wants to see more images of people giving birth to help humanize the experience of childbirth. I was honored to speak with Judy to learn more about her inspirations and…
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10 • Hannah Roloson and her sister Kamala: Birthing in Community, Turning a Breech Baby (The Judy Chicago Series)
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Hannah and Kamala grew up in a community where childbirth was celebrated and an inclusive community event. When Hannah got pregnant there was no doubt in her mind that her family would be there for the big day. Not only do we get to hear the story of two home water births, but its a treat to hear sisters share their perspective on the same experien…
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9 • Erin Battles: Birth Center Transport, Breastfeeding Challenges (The Judy Chicago Series_
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Before Erin gave birth to her son, she didn’t spend a lot of time worrying about breastfeeding. Once he was born, however, they experienced their share of difficulties. She and her son had a long labor, and her milk took a long time to come in, after days of a mysterious fever. When it did come in, only one side was producing due to leftover scar t…
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8 • Faith Hitchon : Being a Single Mother (The Judy Chicago Series)
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Faith Hitchon shares with us her pregnancy, labor and postpartum journey. And specifically the day she became a single mama. Please note, we have a *trigger warning* in this podcast with information on how you can skip over the section that talks about the physical abuse Faith endured. This is a special edition of Big Birth Junkie that coincides wi…
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7 • Renee Watkins : Loving Your Stretch Marks (The Judy Chicago Series)
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Renee first noticed she had stretch marks when she was 14 and remembers thinking “Does this mean I’m ugly? Are people going to think I’m ugly?” After the birth of her children, she was ashamed, embarrassed, and often felt that she had ruined herself because of her loose skin and stretch marks. It was her Auntie Loody and her friends who gave her th…
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6 • Sarranya Chinna: Birthing in India, Csection, Family (The Judy Chicago Series)
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Sarranya is from India and lives in a joint family that includes not only her husband and children but also her In-laws and the family elders. There is a lot of community support when a woman gets pregnant in India. On the one hand, it is helpful and on the other, it can be frustrating. We talk about what it is like to birth in India, being induced…
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5 • Natalie Raymond : Never Wanting Children & Getting Your Tubes Tied (The Judy Chicago Series)
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Natalie always knew that she never wanted to be a mom. Every year since she was a teenager she asked her doctors to have her tubes tied. Natalie and I explore the societal pressure placed on women to have a baby, the ticking of the biological clock and the clarity of knowing that motherhood is not a path she wants to take. This is a special edition…
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4 • Rhonda Edelstein: Water Breaking (The Judy Chicago Series)
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Rhonda is the mother of two beautiful children, both of whom were born at the hospital. There was an expectation on the 2nd birth, because of the ease of her first birth. But, as it happens, she had two very different births with both her children with two very different versions of the water breaking. This is a special edition of Big Birth Junkie …
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3 • Kelly & Jason McKnight: Baby Crowning at the Hospital (The Judy Chicago Series)
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When Kelly gave birth to her 3rd child in the hospital she kept saying, "I need to push!" but was dismissed by the nurse. She was blessed to have her mom in the room who took control because Kelly's son was right there, crowning, between her legs. Kelly is another person of color who was not seen or heard in the hospital. Join us as we talk to Kell…
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2 • Melissa and Travis Fischer : 4 children, 4 different births including 2 Adoptions (The Judy Chicago Series)
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Melissa and Travis Fischer reshape my perception of adoption as they share the stories of how their children entered into their family - two of whom are biological and two of whom were adopted - all four of which are very loved. This is a special edition of Big Birth Junkie that coincides with the artwork of Judy Chicago's Birth Project Born Again …
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1 • Natalie (Mimi) Dohler : 4 Births 4 Different Ways, Birth Tear & Episiotomy (The Judy Chicago Series)
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So many people think that the birth of each of their babes will be just like the first one. Not true. Mimi shares the birth stories for all 4 of her children, all of whom have very different beginnings. We are going to hear a full range of stories that include spontaneous labor, medical inductions, tearing, episiotomies, pitocin, epidurals and au n…
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Dreams. Yes, literal dreams. That is how I became a midwife. In this intro podcast, I share with you my story on how I became a midwife and my intention for this podcast. Within this podcast I am hoping you find inspiration to know that you have choices, the courage to start asking questions about birthing & parenting and the truth on how innately …
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