"I looked like a tomboy... turns out I was": Colin Hagendorf

Living in this Queer Body

In this episode we discuss childhood gender play, complicating trans coming out narratives, the significance of sobriety and secure relational attachment in Colin’s creative life, her relationship to punk, dissociation and transformative justice and the clarity that comes when you get on the right psych meds. I really love Colin. I hope you enjoy this listen.

Colin Hagendorf is writer, podcaster, trans Jewess, and New Yorker in diaspora. She is the author of the 2015 recovery memoir, Slice Harvester: A Memoir in Pizza, and an as-yet-untitled novel in progress about lesbians in Queens that Brontez Purnell described in a text message as “East Coast Love & Rockets.”

She writes the monthly print fanzine Life Harvester with her partner, Rebecca Giordano, and hosts, engineers, and edits the podcast Life Harvester Radio, a series of monthly conversations with writers, artists, activists, tattooers, musicians, and other counter culture types about their cultural production under capitalism, aka “why should we make stuff when society sucks?”

LITQB Podcast: This is a podcast about the barriers to embodiment and how our collective body stories can bring us back to ourselves. This is a podcast for people who identify as queer or for people who might think of their relationship between their body and confining social narratives as queer. This can feel like an isolating experience. Our wounded bodies need spaces to talk about struggles with nourishment/disordered eating, body image issues, dysphoria, racism, heterosexism, transphobia, xenophobia, substance use/abuse, chronic pain/disability, body changes in parenthood, intergenerational trauma, the medical/wellness/therapy industrial complex and its lack of inclusion of queer bodies and much more. Hopefully this podcast can illustrate the connections, and resonant pain points, that we have with one another. Livinginthisqueerbody.com @livinginthisqueerbody

Register for: Navigating Pandemic Fatigue Through a Disability Justice Framework: A Webinar

March 20th

1-3pm EST

Navigating (not fighting off or “combating”) Pandemic Fatigue Through a Disability Justice Framework is an offering that aims to honor that this pandemic time, this "slowing down," is a pace of life that is necessary for many and also offers us a lot of lessons towards individual and collective liberation.

In this virtual webinar, Ilya Parker (@decolonizing_fitness) and Asher Pandjiris (@livinginthisqueerbody) will share their personal experiences with their complicated queer bodies during the pandemic and will provide a framework for thinking about taking lessons forward beyond “pandemic time.” Asher and Ilya will also present material on a disability justice perspective on rest, relating to time and moving through the world in ways that honor the body's needs. Registrants for the live event can submit questions before or during the event for us. Recordings will be available. If you haven’t already, make sure you head over to the LITQB podcast archives and check out our conversation. It is episode 14.

The Host: Asher Pandjiris is a Psychotherapist/ Podcaster/ Group Facilitator

SUPPORT https://www.patreon.com/livinginthisqueerbody

Sound Editing: Barry Orvin www.talkbox.studio

Music: Ethan Philbrick and Helen Messineo-Pandjiris

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